It’s Time To Switch Up The Game
Honestly, I don’t know what the f*ck is going on with men these days. I mean I haven’t experienced anything else but I’m pretty sure it wasn’t always like this. I’ll take this time to b*tch and moan about my man troubles.
I’d like to think I don’t need a man. Which I’m pretty sure I don’t. However, every blue moon I meet a guy that I’m into. But, the older I get, I realize that nobody really dates anymore. Is that a bad thing or nah? Or maybe it’s just me.
No matter the approach it always gets back to the same thing, relationship that dwindles down to basic sexcapades. Maybe I’m just basic? Maybe I’m not “girlfriend” material? F*ck, I don’t know. Maybe my twenties are destined for booty calls?
Am I ruining future relationships by not applying the 5 date or 90 day rule to my new beaus? I don’t get down on the first date but even after that, no matter how long I wait…the same thing!
One thing I’ve learned about myself is that I try to see the good in the “good looking”. Which is terrible. I know! If I’m attracted to you, I give you more chances and deal with a lot of bullsh*t out of lust. I’m not good at saying goodbye. I need to explain, I need closure, maybe I am needy?
But it’s time to switch the game up.
From now on I vow to be completely honest about what I want, not compromising so much on what I need and nipping it in the bud and meaning it. If he does some crazy shit, leave it alone and never look back.
I look back way too much. I need to remind myself that men aren’t a thrifty find that you can repaint and make new. I need to stop seeing the potential and look at the reality of the damn situation. I need to stop pouncing whenever I am in the mood.
I need to be a lady. Whatever that means. But I will try… to switch the game up.